Friday, October 17, 2014

Long

   I made an agreement this week to eat my meals at the table whether I was with family or not. I thought it would be difficult but manageable. I am undone with how LONG it will take to change a habit. It is day four and I have only been successful once everyday. I am doing this to break a numbing habit of eating while watching TV, reading, etc. Numbing feelings is very easy to do when I eat while doing other things. It is however, very bad for my ability to know what I am consuming during the day.


   I numb feelings most often when I am tired, anxious, bored, or stressed out. The sobering facts are that I cannot numb feelings that are negative without numbing feelings of joy. That makes me sad. I wrote more about that here.


   Eating at the table brings calmness and gratitude as immediate rewards. I don't see why those rewards alone don't stop me from doing otherwise but, I have some deeply ingrained habits. Eating while watching TV feels like comfort until I think back on my lack of mindfulness.


    I am trying again today. Breakfast was good. It may take a LONG time.

I write on Fridays with a large group who inspire me. Only five minutes and without much thought to perfection. I write, prompted by one word that sends my thoughts to the keyboard and hopefully make sense.


6 comments:

  1. Being intentional about where you eat seems easy, in thought. Putting it into practice is indeed rather difficult. My husband and I try to be intentional about eating at least one meal a day with the kids at the table. With a busy schedule, that gets tricky. You said, "Eating at the table brings calmness and gratitude as immediate rewards." I will pray that you will miss those rewards if you choose to eat elsewhere, doing other things. Thank you for sharing. Enjoy the weekend.

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    1. Thank-you for your prayer. I just might make progress.

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  2. That sounds like a great challenge. I really like to eat and watch my favorite my tv shows. When the kids are busy elsewhere, I eat my food and watch my show and call it: my perfect moment. Because it only lasts for a moment. lol

    I really appreciate how you said you can't numb the pain without also numbing the joy. That. Is. Amazing. So true. Why haven't I figured that out?

    Good stuff!

    http://5heartsonefamily.blogspot.com/

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    1. Thank-you. I love eating and watching my favorite show. But, it isn't in my best interest.

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  3. This is really something to think about. Thanks!

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  4. Hi Michelle! Thanks for visiting.

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