Confident

Knit on with confidence and hope through all crises

My learning to knit is my favorite metaphor about learning to have confidence in life. I started knitting with a few skills.

 I loved color. I purchased yarn before for crochet projects. I already enjoyed working with my hands.

I started knitting with a few negative issues.

I freak out when I feel I can't fix something gone wrong. I get confused by written instructions. I want to make something challenging before I have basic skills.

My worst nightmare is dropped stitches. It has taken many months to believe I can pick up a dropped stitch, even one that is deep into the garment.

But, I can. 

I love the look of little cables on a garment. It means holding back a few stitches on a separate small tool. It feels awkward and the small gestures to work with that tool are new and cumbersome. 

But, I can make cables.

I am an improviser. I have a hard time following patterns. My mind seems to be searching for an easier way. I often feel smarter than the designer. 

Not true. I see the necessity of a pattern.

I fear that I won't want to wear what I make. That I will be embarrassed after working on a garment for months and decide to set it aside.

Maybe, but so far the knits I have made are precious and hold within them months of concentration and love by their creator. 

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To gain confidence before the Lord I can use my knitting to show me the way.

⍅Don't fear dropping stitches. He can show me how to pick them up.

⍅I can do hard things with his help.

⍅Follow his pattern. He knows the way.

⍅He loves me because he has sacrificed for me and wears the scars to remind me.