Direction

“The only way you're going to reach places you've never gone is if you trust God's direction to do things you've never done.” 

― Germany Kent

I launched myself in a new direction in October. My daughter  asked me to join her in a challenge of giving up flour products and sugar. "For our health," she said, "and because I want you to live a long time."

The spirit whispered she was right. I turned a new direction.

Then October 16, 2020, I felt a hard lump in my breast and another new pathway opened up. After many tests the diagnoses was confirmed, I had Ductal Carcinoma the invasive type. 

   If this makes you turn away, I understand. I couldn't read too much about cancer without feeling vulnerable so I did look the other way. But here I am facing what seemed too hard to see. 
  Giving up flour and sugar was a revelation from God for me. The radiologist, reading my ultrasound, turned to me and said, "You should think about giving up sugar." Cancer loves sugar and I love sugar so both of us had to change direction. Ironically, the same radiologist later claimed she didn't remember giving me that advice. She did however tell me, disappointedly, that the evidence was strong that sugar does increase cancer risk. So I feel like God was giving me a change of direction in a kind way before I had my cancer diagnoses. I was through the craving stage before I had to face my next challenge.
   I am through two surgeries now and perhaps I could say that I'm cancer free. Radiation as secondary insurance is looming ahead but I can testify that God is with me. I also feel the presence of my Heavenly Mother. That might be a foreign concept to many. But I believe I have a Heavenly Father and Heavenly Mother and she is as concerned for her spirit children as I am for my mortal children. 
  Changing direction has been difficult and scary but I am feeling hope and seeing myself out of the woods at a later date. I am speaking in the manner of hope and assurance.