I am joining fellow writers on Kate Motaung's blog who are doing a bi-weekly online discussion group.We are using On Being a Writer: 12 Simple Habits For A Writing Life That Lasts by Ann Kroeker and Charity Singleton Craig. I am personally reading Writing Down The Bones by Natalie Goldberg as inspiration.
I write everyday, in the morning, during breakfast, but I integrate my story in my head all day long.
Fear is such a sweet little animal. It cuddles up to you and soothes your angst, whispering that you have cause to be immobilized. Eyes that show pity and entreat to recede. Until…you resist. Then the fangs come out, a snarl escapes, and the threats begin. I received a letter from fear just earlier today.
Dear Friend,
I write with the upmost respect for your anxiety. You are in need of security and protection. Do not, do not, I repeat, pursue these false hopes of writing down your feelings. Do not give them heed, They are dangerous. You could be swept away and reveal the nasty truths that really you will never succeed at anything you work on. Well, yes, your friends will pat your head and say what talent you have but they don't want to hurt your feelings. We all want to protect you. Keep you from seeing the whole picture of what you should never desire. You should have finished college if you wanted to succeed at writing. But, you didn't and look how unambitious you are. No drive, and you certainly have no work ethic.
I warn you. If you continue this pecking at the computer one day someone will attack your supposed honest words. They will not be nice. I will surely show you how strong I am. Don't push me into taking more drastic measures. You are so weak compared to my power.
Curiosity may be sending you a note. It usually doesn't arrive but she has threatened to show you her wares. She is an unreliable companion. Don't trust her. Stay focused on guarding what you know and hold fast to what is comfortable.
Your all knowing best buddy,
FEAR
Curiosity may be sending you a note. Stay Tuned.
Fear has this way of debilitating us in so many ways. Your letter totally hit home for me. So many of those thoughts often pop into my head when I am trying to write too.
ReplyDeleteTara,
DeleteDebilitating is not too strong a word to describe fear.
I love the way you wrote this- such a creative way of doing it and I identify with a lot of it too.
ReplyDeleteYes, Carly, I believe we all know fear very well.
DeleteI think we're all bitten by that wolf. Is the trick to just bite back as hard as we can?
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking we might need to respect her. Perhaps she needs to be treated carefully, but firmly.
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