People have a hard time letting go of their suffering. Out of a fear of the unknown, they prefer suffering that is familiar.
Thich Nhat Hanh
I have a medical diagnostic test coming up in a few days, one which I want because I want to know what is unknown at this time. The information could be a slight inconvenience or it could change the course of the next year.
I am afraid of the unknown. I spin stories with different plot lines around in my head everyday. That is taking a toll on my sense of peace. This spinning of stories is a familiar suffering.
The Holy Spirit assures that things will be fine. A recent blessing gave me strength to endure the tests and trust the outcome. Really I could be grateful for the not knowing while I have it. There is no action to be taken. It is a period of being settled. I could live deeply right now. I could go to the gym and work up a sweat with the joy of being in a body that seems to to healthy, right now.
The unknown will reveal itself and then a plan will be hatched.
But it will also include going to the gym and working up a sweat and enjoying a body that can work up enough heat to get rid of some toxins whether they be life threatening or not.
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This "This spinning of stories is a familiar suffering. " is so, so true! Our contemplations are often our (my) worst enemy. And I never thought of comfort in a time of waiting, that we are free from the known and therefor... well... free. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. It's given me some of my own to ponder this day.
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They think I'm posing, or I'm mad,
and their error fuels their pity.
Sure, cancer is a fever-dream,
and my body doth implode,
but giving despair free rein don't seem
to be a way to run a railroad.
Perhaps I shouldn't offer humour
or make quite so many jokes,
because they might give rise the rumour
of one too many tokes.
And the irony is that I don't wanna
have anything to do with marijuana.
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Praying that you know peace in the unknown, Gabriele, and as you undergo these tests to find out. I know that is often an unsettling place to be.
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