Rumbling With Creativity

 I am joining Kate Motaung and others who are writing every day in October. My intention is to record my reactions and feelings about Brené Brown's newest book, "Rising Strong". You can find the other posts I have written here.  

   

I wish I were as creative as Suzy Make-a-Lot. I am so amateurish in art and music.

"Like our lovability and divinity, we must care for and nurture the stories we tell ourselves about our creativity and ability."

My reckoning over creativity came when I first posted a journal picture in the online class "Gifts Of Imperfection" that Brené taught on Oprah's OWN Network. Among all the pictures she posted during a streaming video I caught a glimpse of mine. I simple picture of a flying bird and another bird on a branch. My words were "Hope gives flight to power." I could no longer deny that doing art was satisfying. 

The rumble with my creativity has been going on for two years. What started as art journaling moved to doing Mixed Media. It was there that I created a piece which made a huge impact. The words, "I am worthy of love and belonging" resonated to every fiber of my being. I believed that I was a child of God but I did not always believe I was worthy of love and that I was worthy of belonging to my Heavenly Father's family. Words and images created by my own hands opened a portal of understanding. 

  On the delta between the story of "who do you think you are calling yourself an artist, and the reality that I now owned watercolor, paints, gel mediums, brushes, stencils, I found some key learnings.

• I am much happier when I do some art everyday.
• Creativity is a God given gift.
• Writing, painting, knitting, playing music can bring peace into my life.
• I am an artist

So I have had a revolution. I can say, in this one thing, I see the process from coming to a reckoning point where there was no going back, rumbling with the vulnerability of doing something that I seemed inadequate at, and revolving to a new way of doing life. Feeling like I reached out to a little piece of wholeheartedness makes me go on with other issues. 

"Creating is the act of paying attention to our experiences and connecting the dots so we can learn more about ourselves and the world around us."

Tomorrow I want to write about how creativity helps us integrate.